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Oct. 23rd, 2005 12:23 pm haha, i'm almost as good as you eric! and i haven't taken math in like, four years!

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct!




um, i'm lame. i never update this silly thing. oh well. at least that means i have a life. if you see me updating this more, that probably means A, that i have become antisocial or B, that there's a paper i should be writing. in this case, it's B. bye!

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Jul. 12th, 2005 10:23 am you know you need some changes when:

you're twenty but you feel like your fifteen
your live journal buddy list has more "friends" than "friend of"
you use your "friend of" list to judge how many friends you have
you then realize that most of these people don't even talk to you
you then realize that many people you call friends aren't friends
you think of your "friend" who forgot your birthday, your "friend" who called you a slut, your "friend" who is too concerned with making new "friends" to care about her "best friend"
you feel stupid for not realizing this years ago, when you were actually fifteen
you start to think that maybe friendship is overrated, and you should just hang out with your granny instead...maybe your cat...maybe just sit around with deceased poets all day

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Jun. 22nd, 2005 03:35 pm uhh. yeah.

A- Age of 1st kiss: 14

B- Band you are listening to right now: Embrace

C- Crush: uhh…chris azzopardi, if he was straight

D- Dad's name: William Peter Carreras

E- Easiest person to talk to: chris. lol

F- Favorite ice cream: right now? umm cold stone chocolate lovers

G- Gummy worms or gummy bears? worms

H- Hometown: Dearborn, MI

I- Instrument: piano

J- Junior high: Bryant middle school/west middle school

K- Kids: suck. Besides my sisters and hailey

L- Longest car ride ever: birch run. It seemed longer than 12 hours to bonnaroo…I wonder why…

M- Mom's name: Margaret Susan Miller

N- Nickname(s): jessa, snugglebunnie, jessmica, moose? Can we bring that one back to life? Sugar tits. Gotta love it.

O- One wish: certainty. In anything.

P- Phobia[s]: nail files, sandpaper

Q- Quote: “I’d rather be working for a paycheck than waiting to win the lottery”

R- Reason to smile: kittens.

S- Song you sang last: aqualung-brighter than sunshine

T- Time you woke up today: 6:30

U- Unknown fact about me: if it’s unknown, chances are there’s a reason for that.

V- Vegetable(s) you dislike: brussel sprouts, asparagus, lima beans

W- Worst habit: overreacting, thinking too much/thinking people hate me when they don’t

X- X-rays you've had: my lungs and my teeth

Y- Your least favorite person as of right now? dunno…the only person I’m pissed at currently is eric, so I guess him. Maybe I have no right to be? Eh, I still am.

Z-Zodiac sign: cancer (birthday in two weeks people! July 8th, save your cashola!)



ergh. not in a good mood. why am i on here? seriously, why?

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Apr. 24th, 2005 11:11 pm i'll be the one to show you the way, you'll be the one to always complain.

1. I'm obsessed with the band idlewild but have NO money to buy their new cd

2. I miss a certain friend of mine who i haven't talked to in months and i know he doesn't want to talk to me but...i miss him. goddamnit. it's all my fault too, for being a shit ass friend. ergh.

3. i said i was going to go to bed an hour ago so i could wake up early and work on my history paper/register for spring classes before work. double ergh.

4. i'm stressed but not really sad just kinda wishing i didn't do so much shit!

5. i have to reschedule my therapy appointment because i said i was going to be on campus at noon on wednesday for an interview to be an editor for the school paper and my therapy appt. is at 11. i suck.

6. i need to invest in a planner. yeah...that's the ticket.

7. i hate my job.

8. so if i call him and he still hates me, is that ok? or should i just be a wuss and not call and not apologize for sucking?

9. what if he accepts my apology and i still suck?

10. sleep.

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Current Music: kings of leon

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Mar. 29th, 2005 10:53 pm lock all the doors and turn out the lights

i got a new tattoo. oh man. number four. i should really call tess. it's purty. it's a moon. it's a whole fuckin galaxy on my back. holy crap.

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Current Music: mr. mayer as usual.

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Mar. 14th, 2005 08:12 pm uhhh i'm dumb

looking back on my old journal entries, i realized that i said that i got out of a relationship that made me "more happy than unhappy" and that must have looked really weird like "wait, if you were so happy then why did you break up with him?" but yeah. um switch the words happy and unhappy.


yeah i know, i'm an idiot.

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Mar. 12th, 2005 02:51 am haha yeah, i would say that.

What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex
by UMAJohnnie
Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say"Wait, where do you want to put that?"
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in other news, tonight was CRAZY!!!! omg it was so much fun. i'm so tired and i'm going to die when i go into work in um...5 1/2 hours but you know what? it was worth it.

we all met up at catie's where we quickly had to throw clothes over our skanky outfits because her parents came home and they're mormon and they probably would have had heart attacks. but then they freaked out anyway because catie had dyed her hair red/purple. hahahaha. that was a classic parent moment "what did you DO to yourself?!?"

so first we (meaning me, catie, tiff, katie, jon and kim-all people from and/or related to my old job at the picnic basket) went to this terrible "teen club" which was for ages 16-19...yeah well, what can ya do? tiff is only 17 so we put up with it for her! we were only there an hour, and then decided to go to a party at rachel's boyfriend rob's house in (i think) westland. i was driving, but i had no idea where we were.

this is what happens when you cram six people into an explorer and blast kelly clarkson.
chris would have been proud.

aaaanyway, so we were at rob's for an hour or so before we decided that beer was shitty and none of us wanted to throw up gross-ass light beer soooo then it was off to steak n shake!

by this point it's already almost one, and we get there and the place is packed! presumably with kids just getting out of the "taste of chaos" concert. so we get the coolest waiter and his name is bart "like the simpsons character" (lol) we put him through hell but tipped him awesome and left him our phone numbers (even though we have no intention of answering if/when he calls) on the back of the placemats. it was HILARIOUS walking out of there and seeing the huge smile on his face when he sees five girl's phone numbers...and one guy's. that was a classic moment.

quote of the night? "if i could lick my own pussy, i totally would" -catie




overall an extremely entertaining and exhausting night. what a blast. now i remember why i hang out with those guys...there's a lot more that happened that was equally hilarious but since i can't tell stories as well as mr. steve brozowski, king of the nachos, i will just leave it at that.


i need to get my measly four and a half hours of sleep. i'm out!

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Current Music: jack johnson-no other way

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Mar. 7th, 2005 03:34 pm wtf mate?!

somehow when i'm with you my state of mind improves.




hey so....i've been up since about 415 this morning, worked 5-2 with one ten minute break and somehow i can't nap. which is why i say "wtf, mate?!"

also, i totally have to write two papers by noon tomorrow. i'm probably not going to sociology tomorrow. oh well. stupid fuckin freshman in that class. i just hope i can get these damn papers done. both for the same class too! who does that, anyway?!


god you know, i said i wasn't going to procrastinate, and look at me now. i suck ass.






ummm in other (better) news, my parents are going out of town for the week of fourth of july which also happens to be the week my birthday is on!!!! hooooly shit will that be a good week. also--an added bonus--my birthday is on a friday! fuck YEAH!!!! who wants to celebrate jess turning 20 by getting smashed as shit in a well decorated, prissy ass house?! first one to throw up on the white carpet wins a prize!! my bets are on megs. lol.



i'm out.

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Current Music: her space holiday-from south carolina

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Mar. 6th, 2005 08:56 am leaving. how true.

not quite alone,
not quite in company
not quite with you,
so alone without you
i try not to say too much
feeling distant
i try not to say too much
but the distance destroys what i am

just so you know (just so you know)
i just plain stopped trying (just so you know)
just so you know (just so you know)
i made up my mind and...

not quite myself
not quite anyone
not quite in love
yet drowning in your love
your love drowns out who i am

just so you know (just so you know)
i just plain stopped trying (just so you know)
just so you know (just so you know)
i made up my mind and i'm leaving you

i don't feel alive at all. i don't feel alive at all.


you know, every time i used to listen to this song it used to get me all teared up and then i'd have a good cry about how terrible it was that m--- (i'll do it like they did in the old texts. you can fill in the blanks) loved me so much and i wanted to have that, i wanted to love him back and give him as much of me as he gave of himself, but i couldn't do it because i still felt this emptiness in the pit of my stomach...

i'm listening to the same song now, but it's not the same feeling i always had, and i appreciate that. thank you, mind, for giving me some assurance on my decision. i don't feel so empty right now, and i think i did the right thing. i walked away. i walked away from something that was making me more happy than unhappy, and no matter how much it hurts to think that what had become the biggest part of my life for the year of 2004 will not be part of any years to come, i'm glad, if not for anything else, that i actually made a decision, and it was MINE.

i've been having trouble with decision making lately. it's hard to get anything done when you don't trust yourself to do anything right. but, eric put aside (because whatever happens with him is separate from this, and needs to be separate, because they're not the same thing and you can't lump relationships together), i really think this was a good thing for me. even if i end up married with children someday and think "i wonder what happened to him...that guy in 2004" and i start to cry and think "oh my god, what did i give up?" (which i probably will, because we all know how i am. i just like to cry about everything), it still makes sense to me now, and that's enough.


i don't think i can say anything more about it. i feel like dying my hair now. it's my day off, and i'm not going to spend another second of it sitting in bed like a lame-o!

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Current Music: time spent driving

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Feb. 19th, 2005 08:56 am

holy shit i'm back!

i know, i know. i do this all the time....leave, come back...

i have to leave for work in about five minutes, so um. yeah. more later!

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Current Music: JM, duh.

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